so then..

So, then??

Ok,here’s where I’m applying to :
1. Nanyang Technological University, Singapore (Art n Media, Engineering): waiting, then rejected
2. National University of Singapore (Architecture, Engineering): Rejected
3. Singapore Management University (Bussiness informatics,Management, Economy): Accepted, Bridging Programme
4. Asian Pacific University (APU), Japan (either management or health,life,n environmental science): Accepted, 65% scholarship
5. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB) (Industrial, Civil&Environmental Enggineering): Accepted
6. Limkokwing University, Malaysia (Creative Multimedia): Accepted—got 5000RM discount each year
7. Monbukagakusho(Computer Graphic)—Japan Education Ministries Scholarship : Rejected
Actually, I also wanna apply to Canada n New Zealand.. but yaa.. later not.. dunno why..

Lol, a lot n diverse, eh?

Then, to think over n over again, what is the purpose of life? Yea, that’s what I should follow.. Then, after lots of.. tears(lie,lie,lol), thinking, suffering(no la.. kidding.. just wanna extreme-izing (haha, what word is this?)) Ya, God has put in my heart that this, my whole life is only for Him, to make Him happy, to share His love throught my life. Look at newspaper, lots of think happened, the poverty, the war, the environmental problem, etc,. are we only gonna be viewer only can complain, or we’re the actor? Do what we can to contribute to solve the problem.. Mother Teresa is a very good role model for me, may be I can’t do as great as she did, but I’ll have my own way.

When it comes to the time, surely then, it comes to me that the answer is through media, I can spread the message, so we can hold on together to solve the problems.. By then, I finally come to Malaysia.. But for real, I also sometimes still doubt.. why all of sudden I take multimedia,. Is it really can solve the problem, why don’t I just become president then if I wanna do such things.. study social, management, business.. or what.. So far from science.. I by now only learn design, art, drawing, etc.. My science and math knowledge has floating away by then.. If u ask me know.. I’ll b just a dumb at those subjects.. People say it’s a waste for me who can learn science and math well to learn such artistic things.. well.. I don’t know… but here I am, in the path God has chosen for me…

Mm,.. almost forgot 1 more thing!! The most hurting rejection I felt is from the Monbuka.. I’ve been wanting this scholarship since long time.. I’ve studied so hard.. Computer Graphic has always been what I want, what I’ve been dreaming of.. I’ve really put in my heart that God’ll give me this.. I’ve prayed all long… I waited so long for the announcement.. I don’t know then.. to think over it again… I just.. feel sad.. .sad. feel like He has ruined my dream. Even until know I still believe that God’ll give me that scholarship. But then, when God says no? I’ll just put all into His hand.. All back to Him..